yes Aimee went to rehab today and she will be there for 6-8 months. I hope she continues to be optimistic and her support system stays in place. maybe that is what really makes the difference.
looking back it occurs to me that my blog has many entries focused on others without much tie in to myself. with some reflection, really not that much:), it is clear how that has happened. my life has been about others. as a nurse, there is the patient. as a therapist there is the patient and even as a professor/teacher it is about the students. most of us have others in our life that we give our love and support to. mom’s and dad’s have children, spouse’s have likewise, children have parents that may need their care. parenting never ends if you are lucky and then there are the grandchildren.
there has been little time to think about my own situation. situation is an odd word for this, not so odd if it is understood how i refer to my multi-system failure that landed me on life support in ICU as “the event.” it seems tedious to refer to the event in medical terms or what would feel like a bit of melodrama at this point. although when i read of others and their struggles it reinforces my belief that we all have a story. as we go through our day we have a choice to have faith, or spin in uncertainty that can make us suffer beyond our physical self.
recently though I have had things on my mind to write about, however, two things stopped me. one is the awareness of how this blog has changed from its original concept. second, is the awareness that i am not a writer. it’s ok. to know what our gift is, is a blessing. when reading other blogs i am in awe of the creativity and flow of the story. the new goal for me is to remember and follow my true purpose in writing at all. as for the other it is my intent to be ok, really ok, with my limits as a writer. this was never meant to be anything more than a personal blog. future posts may be boring to some who now read my postings. there are so many more interesting people out there. those that become bored please do not feel the need to comment on said boredom.